Today I want to talk about the duality of me. And shoes, of course.
I got a pair of new shoes in the mail this morning. I saw them at Neiman Marcus a few weeks back and ignored every piece of advice I've ever given you guys by buying them on the spot at FULL PRICE. They didn't have my size so one of the sales associates had them special ordered for me. I didn't even use a coupon,online code, NOTHIN'. The shoes are high-heeled, cutout oxfords in a style I never, EVER would have imagined myself liking. Just goes to show what they say about love is true - it is blind and it knows no bounds.
I rarely buy things for myself on my shopping excursions but this time I just couldn't help it. The thing I want to talk about, though, is how much I've been daydreaming about these shoes as I waited. And how excited I was when I got them. And how I'm never taking them off again.
Here's the thing. I've been a lot more in touch with my "girly" side lately. Up until recently I suppressed that part of myself and something about the last few months has made that side come back with a vengeance. I'm gossipping with my girlfriends in the office, talking about movie stars and crushes, getting my eyebrows waxed... all the things that I would roll my eyes at in my head while I was in "austere, kick-ass, all-business" mode. As torn as I feel about my newly resurfaced girliness, I'm having a great time right now and while I'm a tiny bit ashamed of my girliness nothing's going to stop me from getting a huge kick out of wearing my awesome new shoes to work on Monday.
These shoes represent the fact that I'm complex. I can be totally no nonesense and totally "girly" in one conversation. I can giggle while I look authoritative. And I can get as excited about a new pair of shoes as I do about getting praise from my bosses at work. This is who I am. And God damn it, I LOVE MYSELF.
PS: So what do you think of my shoes?? Aren't they totally HOT?